Stuff

• I had my first class this week! Conservation Genetics. I really liked it. I've heard the phrase, "It's like flexing a muscle you haven't used in a long time," to describe using your brain like that after a long lag, but this is the first time I've fully felt it. It was lovely. It's so great to be excited about school again. I was decidedly not excited right after finishing undergrad.
• That interview opportunity for a new position is coming up soon. Wish me all the luck you can! Because...
• I see my self esteem falling away from me small slivers at a time. It's due to the situation at work. I'm trying to remain upbeat and positive, but I know it's having an effect. One of the reasons I know this is that the other night I had a dream where all my friends and coworkers decided that enough was enough, and it was time to say how they really felt about me. Friends said that they loved me and that was why they had to let me know how much of a jerk I was being so that I could change and they could stand me again. Coworkers (even secretaries from different departments) illuminated all the instances in which I annoyed or frustrated them and ranted that I needed to face the music about my asshole tendencies. It was a sucky dream. I desperately need a change for my mental health.
• I've decided to save a little more money before buying a car. Saving a little more would get me a much better car. Your help has been invaluable though!
• Kara asked how reading the Dalai Lama book is going. I'm a little stalled right now due to having school reading assignments and lots of extra work to deal with, but I have gotten a little farther. I really like how Buddhism sees life and our ultimate death. It's a sobering subject to be sure, but the way they see it feels good and makes a lot of sense. I'm really lifting a lot of my own ignorance about Buddhism. I also just read a section where the Dalai Lama discusses how Buddhists define life and suffering and how that applies to IVF and frozen embryos. I LOVED how he described his confusion and thoughts on this issue. It was so refreshing to read such an authority who felt he didn't have the answer and admitted it. He also speaks with such non-condemnation and inclusiveness. It's right up my alley. I found it timely and wise to discuss this situation in the book.
• Life is busy, so I get around to reading when I can. I've vowed not to put so much pressure on myself to perform for others anymore. I would buckle under the weight I'd give myself if I didn't watch it. So in this case, if I haven't been around in a while, it really ISN'T you. It's me. ;-)

Laters.