I think this weekend is going to turn out to be a really good one. (by the way, when I say "weekend," I mean my weekend, which constitutes days other than sat/sun) Yesterday dawned gloomy and cold for Florida, but we headed to Starbucks later in the afternoon to meet with K&K from the Wielecki Twins. You may remember them as the "normal couple" with whom we enjoyed conversing at the peer support group quite a while back. It was just as delightful to meet with them this time. They are both so well versed on such a variety of subjects and have done lots of interesting things. They are also both friendly and fabulous at drawing people into conversation. How do you DO that? I need to work on that a little instead of my normal rambling. And I must say that the expectant mother is looking quite radiant. It's very cliche, I know, but it's just the truth. :)So I guess instead of having the regular support group that Mel suggested a while back, I'll just be meeting the infertiles (or should I say subfertiles?) in Florida one by one. That's cool.
On top of all that, I'm getting much better at this knitting with 4 needles thing. I
think the pattern I'm using is going to make a rather huge mitten, but that's ok. It's my first time right? I still can't show you the other two projects at which I've been toiling away. I can't wait though!!Tonight I head out for a girls' get together. I can't even tell you how nice that's going to be again. I can't believe it has taken me this long to start living life to the fullest again. Scratch that. I guess I can believe it since infertility has hit me so hard. Ah well. We're making it.
So I'm pretty happy despite the backsliding I've been so mysteriously referring to lately. Mysterious is sexy remember? I have to make me interesting somehow. I'm still not going to go into detail in this post, but basically, I've had an incredible resurgence in the desire to give birth to a child. I just can't seem to shake it. I guess if someone told me it was completely hopeless, I could then move on to adoption without these nagging feelings pulling me back. However, I started ovulating, and despite the fact that I know it's probably a slim chance it gave me hope. So now I've been struggling with that whole cycle again. I guess it never really will end. But damn it, we just want to have a baby!! Why is that so EFFING hard?
9 comments:
I am intrigued by your knitting with four needles. I cannot fathom doing that.
Wow, your knitting is amazing!
You should go with what your heart and gut are telling you. Those charts have been looking great. Even if your chances aren't what you'd like them to be, why not give it a go? You know we'll be cheering you on from the sidelines (anything closer would be creepy!).
It is tough to get used to knitting on dpn's but it sure looks like you are coming along very nicely with it!
And it shouldn't be so damn difficult to get pregnant. It is simply unfair. Somebody once told me that if it were fair then there would be a lot fewer babies in the world. I don't know if it counts for anything but I continue my quiet cheering section over here.
Cool knitting, I've always wanted to do something like that, but can't seem to get it started.
I totally understand the back slide. I'm right there with you, I can't make up my freakin' mind if I want to go full throttle forward or in reverse.
Good luck!!!
Oh if we only hadn't left so abruptly yesterday maybe we would've gotten onto the topic of intermittently knitting your mitten. (What a great rhyme). (And a great time!)
Karl
"I've had an incredible resurgence in the desire to give birth to a child. I just can't seem to shake it."
Nor should you have to.
Thanks everyone! You're the best. :)
Karl - Thanks. We had a good time too. :) I'm sure we'll meet again.
By the way Jen - I couldn't fathom it either for the 5 or 6 yrs I've been knitting. That's why I've only just now gotten around to it. ;-)
I am glad you are back from your trip I missed you. I can understand wanting a have a baby. It's a shame that people can't just snap their fingers and be pregnant though. Glad you knitting projects are going nicely.
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