However, my cycle seems to be changing for the better each time now. I am pretty excited about that. Even if it doesn't result in pregnancy, I am so much healthier and happier. I noticed that I didn't even get the same black mood swings and urge to kill that I usually get before my period. I was moody to be sure, but I didn't have to restrict my access to sharp objects as much. Now if I could just get rid of the hellacious cramps and discomfort.... ah well, at least they don't last as long as they used to.
Here is that chart just for a curious glimpse. I still think something odd happened. Two eggs released? A fertilization but no implant? Something...
Another thing I'm a little on edge about right now is that a friend of mine is actually "starting to try" this month. She is a wonderful, caring person, but she has also given me her share of assvice and really believes that if I just had the faith in God that she has and could de-stress more, that it would help me get pregnant. She's in her 30's and has a pretty late ovulation (if at all), but is convinced that she will have "no problems and will get pregnant right away." And you know what? She probably will. That will be great for her. I don't wish this on anyone. BUT, then I will watch yet another go through the pregnancy I should have already had. Only this time I will get to hear over and over how it was her faith in God and her positivity that got the deed done. I'm just not looking forward to that. I like her and don't want to lose our closeness, or worse, have to hit her over the head with a blunt object. I'm sure you'll hear more as this progresses. I will definitely need an outlet.
In happy thoughts - I'm hoping for another move up in my ovulation. (fingers crossed) I've also started really working on my garden areas and am finally getting things where I want them. It just took a while to know what to do with it. We live in a more scrub, dry area of Florida, so I'm trying to do arid landscaping in the back. I can't stand the St. Augustine grass that sucks up so much precious water. You should see how pretty my cacti are! I'm also trying to buy eco-friendly mulch and more native plants. Happy stuff!
In knitting news, I'm working on 2 projects that I am SO excited about. I can't post photos until I've finished, and I can't wait! And last but not least, I finally threw away that positive hpt from last year....
peace
FCiF
ETA: This is turning out to be one of the worst periods I've had in a very long time. Today's happy things: Midol, heating pads, soup
7 comments:
i think you and I have hte same "friend". I went through that a few months ago ... and that's about all i have to say about that
AS for your body and AF - Wooo I am glad that you are felling like "something" is going on. It's always a delight.
Good luck gardening, knitting and all that fun stuff
"Only this time I will get to hear over and over how it was her faith in God and her positivity that got the deed done."
*gag*vomit*wretch*
I don't really garden so much as do my own version of land management. It's time for me to be out pulling honeysuckle and planting oak trees. I'm bad for not having started yet this year. It's a touch thing to keep at because it will be 20 years before I can see the affects of my labor. But I'm trying to keep at it. :D
I'm sorry you are having a rough day. I really hate and dread those. I always think I'm fine if I'm not pg until Auntie shows up, and then I get all depressed.
I totally hear you about the "friend" thing too. It seems like I just did a post to that effect last week. Isn't it ironic? I totally hate her type of assvice too. I used to get that from my MIL almost daily until I quit talking to her completely a year ago. I think one of the last things I said to her was that my problem was not that I was so uptight I couldn't concieve and that she needed to take her nose out of my business since it was obvious she had no clue what the hell I was going through already. The best thing I ever did was to stop talking to her. :D
I'm glad to hear that at least if you do have your unwanted visitor, that her stays aren't as bad as they used to be, and that you can find some, if only a little, comfort in that.
I am glad things are working in your cycle. I think that is the first step. Hopefully all is going well. SOrry you have one of those friends. I think all of us have one of those friends that offers assvice and then sort of rubs it in your face.
Glad the garden is going well. I don't do so well in the gardaning aspect and I get kind of jealous of anybody that can do it with relative ease and it looks good. I will try it again as soon as spring finally gets here but my husky digs stuff up so many things have to go in the front yard that she can't get to or they have to go in hanging baskets. We shall see.
I've been eyeing our garden as well. It was too cool this weekend but temperatures are starting to warm up nicely.
I'm sorry that you have to deal with an insensitive friend. Vent as much as you need to. :P
DISCLAIMER: I am not good at gardening at all either. I merely got a nudge in the right direction and am getting very hardy plants. ;-)
Good for you Taina!
Michelle - Those damn AF hormones make me crazy too. argh.
I'm sorry about your friend that is starting to try. I have a friend that every month tells me that she hopes shes not pregnant...which is fine and good but why does she have to tell me that when she knows all about our TTC efforts. Drives me nuts. ((hugs))
YAY about your cycle...i hope you get that move up in ovulation :)
Have fun with your knitting and gardening :)
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