Sleepy, Sad, Snippy

Why do I react so very harshly to interrupted sleep? Why, oh why? I'm almost ready for my cycles to start up again. I need some progesterone in my system. Sigh.

Things That Make Me Go Hmmm...

It's funny to me that many of the books I've read and people I've talked to caution that you really should put the baby monitor away after a certain point, yet those same books and people remind you incessantly that SIDS is a constant danger and while it diminishes greatly after 6 months, it's still a possibility up to 2 years of age!*


*Wow. That's a long sentence.

Good Day and a Mini-Rant

We had a fabulous day today. My theory that more sleep would help me cope was borne out as I was much happier after a full stretch of 6 hours last night! Granted, much of the problem lies with me as I've started trying to do things on my own after he's gone to bed and sometimes take it too far. I really need to be in bed by 8:30 or 9pm to get enough sleep during the work week, but man, it's nice to get stuff done too!

Wow, do I digress. Anyway, we both had good sleep, plus we had a play date. We went to the library for E's very first story time with some other Mommies. He had a blast watching the other kids and flirting with an elderly library volunteer. It was adorable.

Next we met up at Chik Fil A where E grinned at everyone, I had a chicken sandwich, and we shared the fruit cup. Apples are just the bestest if you didn't know. E was so beside himself with excitement, he could hardly bring himself to drink his milk.

We stopped by our local Catholic Church (side rant at the end), before coming home for Mommy and Baby nap time. Then we played together until he let me know he was ready for bed at 7, and he actually nursed! I also had a good talk with a friend about some things that had been bothering me. It was a good day all around.


Rant: Can I just say that as a non-Catholic married to a Catholic that sometimes it's very hard not to be just a little frustrated with the way the Church works? I have done everything I can to not stand in the way of Hub's faith, to agree to attend Mass more than I've attended Protestant services, to have our marriage blessed and all that entails. It sometimes makes me feel unappreciated when it's just assumed everything we do has to be Catholic, as if my background doesn't matter. Having E baptised in the Church is proving to be more difficult than I ever imagined it should or could be. Shouldn't gaining a member (especially a baby) be a good thing? And inside, a part of me yearns to have him baptised in the manner I was, but that's not the agreement. Hub would be ok with it, but his family would not. My family is open thank goodness.

Disclaimer: I am not putting down the Catholic faith - merely expressing my frustrations.

Food Meme

I stole this from Oro at Birch and Maple who got it from the Very Good Taste Blog. I can never resist food fun. I didn't want to strike out ones I'd never consider though. I'm a rule breaker I am!
Disclaimer: Some of these things I don't eat anymore and some I HATE even though I've tasted them.

The VGT Omnivore’s Hundred:

1) Copy this list into your blog or journal, including these instructions.
2) Bold all the items you’ve eaten.
3) Cross out any items that you would never consider eating.
4) Optional extra: Post a comment here at www.verygoodtaste.co.uk linking to your results.

1. Venison
2. Nettle tea
3. Huevos rancheros
4. Steak tartare
5. Crocodile
6. Black pudding
7. Cheese fondue
8. Carp
9. Borscht
10. Baba ghanoush
11. Calamari
12. Pho
13. PB&J sandwich
14. Aloo gobi
15. Hot dog from a street cart
16. Epoisses
17. Black truffle
18. Fruit wine made from something other than grapes
19. Steamed pork buns
20. Pistachio ice cream
21. Heirloom tomatoes
22. Fresh wild berries
23. Foie gras
24. Rice and beans
25. Brawn, or head cheese
26. Raw Scotch Bonnet pepper
27. Dulce de leche
28. Oysters
29. Baklava
30. Bagna cauda
31. Wasabi peas
32. Clam chowder in a sourdough bowl
33. Salted lassi
34. Sauerkraut
35. Root beer float
36. Cognac with a fat cigar
37. Clotted cream tea
38. Vodka jelly/Jell-O
39. Gumbo
40. Oxtail
41. Curried goat
42. Whole insects
43. Phaal
44. Goat’s milk
45. Malt whisky from a bottle worth £60/$120 or more
46. Fugu
47. Chicken tikka masala
48. Eel
49. Krispy Kreme original glazed doughnut
50. Sea urchin
51. Prickly pear (yum!)
52. Umeboshi
53. Abalone
54. Paneer
55. McDonald’s Big Mac Meal
56. Spaetzle (oh my PA Dutch heritage.. mmmmmmmm)
57. Dirty gin martini
58. Beer above 8% ABV
59. Poutine (Yum again. With a Canadian Hub, how could I have NOT had it?)
60. Carob chips
61. S’mores
62. Sweetbreads
63. Kaolin
64. Currywurst
65. Durian
66. Frogs’ legs
67. Beignets, churros, elephant ears or funnel cake
68. Haggis
69. Fried plantain
70. Chitterlings, or andouillette
71. Gazpacho
72. Caviar and blini
73. Louche absinthe
74. Gjetost, or brunost
75. Roadkill
76. Baijiu
77. Hostess Fruit Pie
78. Snail
79. Lapsang souchong
80. Bellini
81. Tom yum
82. Eggs Benedict
83. Pocky (the Filipino relatives would disown me otherwise. :)
84. Tasting menu at a three-Michelin-star restaurant.
85. Kobe beef
86. Hare (as in rabbit?? then rabbit yes, hare no. If it's something else, then no. :)
87. Goulash
88. Flowers
89. Horse
90. Criollo chocolate
91. Spam
92. Soft shell crab
93. Rose harissa
94. Catfish
95. Mole poblano
96. Bagel and lox
97. Lobster Thermidor
98. Polenta
99. Jamaican Blue Mountain coffee
100. Snake

Bits

• My baby has learned to choose which book he wants to read. Friggin adorable.
• Hub finally went to an allergy specialist! HURRAY! Turns out he's really allergic to lots of stuff. Who knew. :p
• Dear Starbucks - Please put more pumpkin and less coffee in your lattes. Thank you.
• I do believe being tired is a large part of my problem. Another large factor is that there was so much change in my life right when the huge change that was becoming a mother occurred. Now I feel a bit lost and without much of a nearby support system.
• Speaking of tired - E has decided to start waking up a lot at night again. bleh.
• E has started patting us a lot when he's happy. The other day he was patting around my head and face - patting quite excitedly. His finger when up my nostril. There was blood.
• Thank you for all the advice! Goodwill near rich people sounds perfect. All I've seen near me are ghetto ones... hmmm....
  

Thank You Hub

Thank you for...

• Refilling the hand soap all the time.
• Trying to replace and fix things around the house with a positive spirit.
• Lending a hand every time you see me embroiled in a hard task.
• Putting the food away after dinner so many times when I'm just beat and ignore it.
• Making sure the boys are taken care of.
• Loving that baby and me so well and making sure we know it.
• Doing most of your laundry.
• Straightening up sometimes.
• Keeping an eye on me and helping me keep track of important things like my keys and checkbook. (I notice that you put my keys in the right spot when I've forgotten. :)
• Basically just helping to keep my spirits up and my head screwed on right.
• Telling me what a good Mommy I am all the time and reinforcing E for loving on me.
  
• Writing me the sweetest note I've ever gotten from anyone.
  

I'm sure there are some I missed, but see, I do notice.

Love you,
B

When I was Normal

In an attempt to remember who I am and what is possible, I read through my "happy times" tag. It made me misty eyed for that confident girl who wrote well thought out posts. I want her back. Wouldn't it be wonderful to couple that attitude with this amazing new joy? That's why I'm in therapy.

This is a good representation of what I want to have again.